Well im visiting with my love for a few days, and I couldnt be happier. Its hard to be without her all the time. I miss her like the people in hell miss ice water. Im so glad to be back with her even if its only for a short while.

She means more than anything in this world to me and I will always love her no matter what happens in our lives. I tattoo'd her image ( a daisy) behind my right ear to signify that she will always be with me and in my thoughts.

I missed the kids sooo damn much. I woke them up for school today because i got here after they fell asleep last night and they didnt know I was coming. Lili jumped straight up outta bed and bear hugged me and wouldnt let go. Jaz gave me a huge hug and Cézar almost killed himself on his table trying to get out of bed to get to me. I've never felt so loved in all my life.

Even the dog and cats missed me, lol. Aries (my kitty) was sitting on the steps and started meowing the second i got out my car and Snowy (our dog) acted like a small child on wayyyy too much sugar when she saw me.

This life isnt exactly what I had imagined for all of us, but I am working and dealing with it as it comes. Maybe one day we can all be back together again, I certainly hope so. The one thing that keeps me going no matter how much it hurts is that they love me and I will see them again. I feel superbly grateful that they love me and I couldnt ask for a better family. I am so lucky to have them all, if only for a short time, all the hurt, pain, and tears is worth it all when I see their faces.

They are what life is all about, finding the people you love, making yourself and them happy together.

I love you all and I feel so lucky that you love me back!